Now that the excitement cool down, suddenly fear and anxiety filled up the space.. Fear of dunno what to do next, where to head, lost of direction.. So yeah, finish studies for now, but I keep asking myself, what's next? A job, yes, but what kinda job? What do I really want to be? Feel so lost and the future is kinda blur.. Worried, yes, but I believe He will provide and He already has his plans for me, timing and faith is the key.. Need to pray for strength.. ^^
So what's with starting over? Well, basically working life will be totally another world, so everything needs to start from scratch again.. Ahh.. Hate to start everything again.. Maybe I'm too comfortable in my zone that I dun wanna change.. Is that normal? Well, working on it, hard..
Though not really sure what direction I wanna head, but went for a few interviews in the last 2 weeks.. Well, most of them went smoothly, just that I am now struggling to decide on going for one or keep looking.. Maybe I should just stick to one first for now.. Tired of searching for the moment.. Still young and it's better to grab the experience first rite? Well, will update this matter soon..
Relationship area.. Been trying to run away and ignore it for a long while but I am proud to say that I have just dealt with it, which actually prompts me to write up on it.. Although I have decided to let go, but actually doing it is another matter you see.. But today, with the grace and love from God, I am actually free from it.. Total set free.. Not a tiny bit of unwanted feelings leftover.. Thank God.. How do I feel? Freedom and joy.. Guess I will stay away from love zone for a while, miss myself.. Hehe.. But a reminder to myself and all out there, Do not rush into it!
P.S. Miss my gang.. Campus Memories..
FYP Gang
The Gang
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