Starting Over

So long din blog ady.. Guess I'm too happy and relieve as everything has come to an end, studies, fyp, finals.. Though I'm happy and excited and all but after a while, it feels kinda weird..

Now that the excitement cool down, suddenly fear and anxiety filled up the space.. Fear of dunno what to do next, where to head, lost of direction.. So yeah, finish studies for now, but I keep asking myself, what's next? A job, yes, but what kinda job? What do I really want to be? Feel so lost and the future is kinda blur.. Worried, yes, but I believe He will provide and He already has his plans for me, timing and faith is the key.. Need to pray for strength.. ^^

So what's with starting over? Well, basically working life will be totally another world, so everything needs to start from scratch again.. Ahh.. Hate to start everything again.. Maybe I'm too comfortable in my zone that I dun wanna change.. Is that normal? Well, working on it, hard..

Though not really sure what direction I wanna head, but went for a few interviews in the last 2 weeks.. Well, most of them went smoothly, just that I am now struggling to decide on going for one or keep looking.. Maybe I should just stick to one first for now.. Tired of searching for the moment.. Still young and it's better to grab the experience first rite? Well, will update this matter soon..

Relationship area.. Been trying to run away and ignore it for a long while but I am proud to say that I have just dealt with it, which actually prompts me to write up on it.. Although I have decided to let go, but actually doing it is another matter you see.. But today, with the grace and love from God, I am actually free from it.. Total set free.. Not a tiny bit of unwanted feelings leftover.. Thank God.. How do I feel? Freedom and joy.. Guess I will stay away from love zone for a while, miss myself.. Hehe.. But a reminder to myself and all out there, Do not rush into it!

P.S. Miss my gang.. Campus Memories.. FYP Gang

The Gang

Finally, but why can't I see the light yet?

Finally, final year project completed.. Ok, maybe not totally, still have to edit a little to create the hard bound copies, but 90 percent done, now just waiting to collect it back and add some final touches.. Hooray! Btw, the final sem is coming to an end, only one more cls to go, suddenly felt that everything in this sem passes so fast, wonder is it a good thing or the opposite.. After this wed, only have to worry bout the finals and hard bound and puff, complete my studies (not official yet as the convo is next March).. Working life however, is not easy.. A big part is due to interest I guess, I'm trying my best to work on it.. I hope so anyway.. Better not talk too much bout it now.. Just in case..

What I did during this holidays? Hmm.. Well, I watched a couple of movies or so, (Up, The Proposal, GI Joe, Aliens in the Attic, Orphan) and finished a novel (My Sister's Keeper).. O ya, I went back to AS for 2 days, main purpose is to setttle some documents, didn't do much besides that except some stuff I regret after doing.. Anyway, I hate regrets.. What I hate about it is I did some stuff I promised I'll not repeat.. I hate myself.. Why can't I stand firm, I always melt when facing the issue.. This time, I've decided to seriously put a stop to it, I can't go on any longer.. I'll break.. I do not want to go through it every once in a while.. I want it to STOP! Yes I Will. I will be torn and broken, but it's better now than later right.. Gambateh!

Ooh, tomorrow got a class party, kinda like a graduation party in Tony's house.. Should be a blast.. It's kinda like a pot bless, am bringing curry chicken.. But the most important thing is, hopefully I don't get lost on the way there.. Hehe.. Well, all the best to us..^^